Site Stuff, Running is Mental & Nursing Moms (TBT)


My site is finally fixed! My site is finally fixed! Do you have any idea how happy this makes me?!

thinking out loud

Actually, it feels weird to have a normal functioning blog. And almost scary. I am afraid something else will go wrong or that it isn’t really fixed and a notification will pop up to tell me again that my site can’t be indexed by search engines.

I am grateful for my tech guy (that’s what I call him) for uncovering the issue. He said it was one of the most challenging issues to uncover so far in his career. There was a code placed somewhere in an .htaacess file (don’t I sound technical?) that was instructing search engines to go away. It’s possible I was hacked at some point but we don’t really know for sure.

All I know is search engines are finding me friendly again. 🙂

So the only picture I have taken in the last few days was of my new favorite Whole Foods 365 Crunchy Salted peanut butter. You can find the picture of the giant jar on Instagram in the stories thing. Not that my peanut butter is much of a story but no one else’s Instagram story is much more substantial than a jar peanut butter so I guess it’s acceptable story material.

What has our world come to by the way? Do you ever stop to think about what you find news and picture-worthy these days? Like, who cares what my jar of peanut butter looks like?

Tuesday morning was my first real workout of this half marathon training cycle.

running path

On the schedule was a two-mile warm up, 12 X 1 min 5k pace/1 min easy plus cool down.

Lately I get this feeling like my outdoor runs are just sort of bleh. I like to blame the weather but then I wonder, is it really the weather?  I love to run and still look forward to running each morning but so often I feel like I am moving so slow and can’t go any faster even if I tried.

 Laura assures me I haven’t lost my speed even though I tell her sometimes that I have. She talks me down from many a ledge lately just like my mother does when it comes to my wardrobe.

During the warm up of Tuesday’s run, I still felt that way. I couldn’t stop thinking about feeling this way.

What was wrong? Nothing hurt. Nothing bothered me. So why do I keep thinking I am just trudging along? Do the people in my neighborhood notice how slow I am moving?

I was nervous for the speed intervals to begin. I was even considering that maybe, just maybe, training for a half marathon right now wasn’t smart. How was I going to suddenly start running at a 5k pace in a few minutes? What am I thinking to run a half marathon in eight weeks? That sounds really long, far and tiring.

The idea of not running the half marathon even crossed my mind. Maybe I would drop the training plan and return to routine workouts. That sounded like a good idea.

And then the warm up was over and it was time to start timing the one minute intervals.

Suddenly it felt like BOOM! I was off. I was running fast as if the thoughts hadn’t happened, as if I naturally move at 7:00 min pace like no big deal. Why is this? Why was I able to run so fast in an almost effortless way?

I was completely dialed into the intervals, I didn’t touch my music after setting it to my race playlist and didn’t think about anything else during those 24 minutes.

It is all mental right now? Have I become that runner who is more motivated to move faster when there’s a training plan telling me it’s time to run faster? Something to think about.

Did you see this about the mom who ran a half marathon while pumping a bottle? I am fascinated. I have friends who can pump while driving but running? Interesting. Good for her. I was never good at pumping. I rarely had the time to even sit there to pump since I was always feeding my hungry baby and when I did pump, the kid didn’t ever take the bottle. Hard to believe my baby will be 13 in only a few weeks and the Bar Mitzvah is in, um, 24 days.

Here’s a picture from when I was in total nursing mom mode. It was my son’s first birthday party. That’s my best pal Lisa and her son, who is still one of my son’s bestest friends. And Lisa was the nursing champ. She could pump while driving. If she were a runner, I would venture to guess she could pump a bottle while running. She is a great multitasker.

benji first birthday

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If you are/were a nursing mom, do/did you use the pump?

Do you find that running can be really mental for you at times? Do you need a training plan to move faster?

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  1. says

    I am so glad your site is fixed! That must be such a relief. I can’t believe it was such a complicated problem. And crazy that you may have been hacked!
    Its always hard to get back into faster paces but somehow the speed always comes back quicker than you would think. I feel like I need some sort of a plan to do speed work, even if its just planning to run a fartlek workout once a week or something.
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    • says

      thank you, yes, such a relief! part of me is glad to know it was a major complicated problem to find because I really tried to uncover the issue myself but just couldn’t do it. I ran a lot of fartleks this summer- I just need the weather to cool down already. I think the heat definitely slows me down.

      • says

        Ugh I hate Bloglovin! I feel like it is always “hiding” posts from me…like Ill go through a bunch and then when I refresh it something from like 3 days ago will show up.
        When I click on my own feed on bloglovin I am seeing my posts, so I have no idea how to fix this. Hopefully you didn’t pass along your blog problems to me lol!
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  2. says

    I pumped on an airplane but never driving and definitely not running! So glad the site it working! I know that feeling of being scared though and I still get nervous that my blog won’t open all the time. And running really is so mental. I can move pretty fast when I need to, like if a car or animal is nearby, but otherwise if nothing’s telling me to, I won’t!
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  3. says

    I saw the article about the mom who pumped while running and was like Dayum, you go girl. I don’t pump at all these days since I’m constantly with the kid and she eats directly from me. I think my supply is too much as is, so I don’t want to create anymore. That and like you, she won’t take a bottle.

    I’m so glad your site is fixed. Celebrating with you.
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    • says

      yeah the more you pump, the more you will bring in so if you don’t need the bottles, don’t do it. my son never took the bottle and things worked out fine. eventually he learned to drink water and juice from a sippy cup

  4. says

    Yay!!! So happy for you that your computer is fixed and NICE JOB on those intervals. 7 min pace is NO JOKE. Running is such a mental game sometimes. It’s so weird! And man, it feels like I nursed so many kids for so long. I nursed Katie until she was 2! That was the longest. And I pumped a lot when I had Jake (my first) because I was so anxious that he wasn’t getting enough. It was nice though because he took a bottle and made it so we could go out and have grandparents watch him.
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  5. says

    Woo for no site issues! I hope that anxious paranoia goes away for you soon. I remember not being able to shake the feeling that something was going to go wrong with my blog again for like two weeks after it was fixed. And… screensaver? 😯 I don’t think I’ve ever seen mine. My computer just goes to sleep when I don’t use it for a while.
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    • says

      I definitely missed the window of enforcing the bottle at the month mark. I think my son took it once and that was it. it worked out fine though since I was always with him anyway. when I wasn’t, the bottle was there but he never took it. eventually he learned to drink water and juice from a sippy cup