The weather people are telling me to take the blizzard warning that is currently in effect super seriously.
Aside from getting the food shopping done, I am doing my best to not over think the possibility of three feet of snow, school being closed and crazy cabin fever.
Taking things too seriously really can lead to over thinking which leads to pressure and pressure can cause all sorts of self-inflicted maybe-not-necessary trauma and the development of that push-pull pattern which I don’t like at all.
As you may know, I don’t like to share my dessert. I want the good stuff for myself and I often take it too seriously.
I don’t want just a small bite, a sliver or a dinky little excuse for chocolate cake and I most certainly don’t want you asking to share or for a taste for you may decide to eat the really good parts and those were the parts I wanted and now you ruined it.
My son sees how serious I take this so on purpose, he will attack my plate.
I push what I want and he pulls it away from me.
I am slowly learning that if I stop taking it so seriously, he stops taking it so seriously and stays away from my cake.
If I don’t push, he doesn’t pull.
Are you familiar with this push-pull theory, like often seen in situations between Mars and Venus?
You know, the woman pushes, the man pulls away?
She pushes with questions, the needing to know, the harping, nagging, making everything really serious, he feels the pressure, wants no part and pulls back.
And of course I am now going to associate this push-pull theory with running too.
In my head, the pressure that was pushing in me, just knowing I would have to complete my long run on the treadmill over the weekend was pulling me away from the workout.
It was too much pressure to think I would be in one place for so many miles so I switched my long run to Friday in order to run outdoors instead.
With a decent long run accomplished Friday, pressure was off for Saturday.
And with the pressure off, I felt amazing and ran 11 miles on the treadmill anyway Saturday morning simple because I felt like it.
Last year when I had to drop out at mile seven during the Fitness Magazine Half, I seriously traumatized myself for the next race on my calendar, the Long Island Half, which was only three weeks later.
I was afraid I would feel faint again and when I combined that with the pressure to run the Long Island Half against my PR from the year before, I pulled away from myself and my ability to run.
Going into that Long Island Half, I am now convinced that the pressure overtook me and kept me from just running my race, even though I thought that was exactly what I was doing.
Of course I ran it cautious, I needed to see that I could race without feeling sick yet at the same time, I think I used that as an excuse to pull away from the pressure I had on myself to finish under 1:45.
I am not the first to talk about the pressures we put on ourselves and how much better it may be for us to lighten up.
Tina has spoken a lot about this recently too.
Overall in life, of course we need to be serious about certain things, motivate ourselves and push a bit but maybe not always on such an intense level.
Finding the right amount of serious, balanced with that go with the flow and ease up the heck up mentality is not easy.
I don’t even have the answers for you right now as to how to go about it.
I mean, I am just some girl in New York who writes and runs a lot while eating obscene amounts of peanut butter, oatmeal and cake.
I am no expert, (except in the area of dessert) but really, what do the experts know. They don’t know you personally.
Only you know yourself.
I know I do better with less pressure but sometimes, if you don’t push for what you want, if you hold back too often, you may actually lose what is possible.
So I guess what I am trying to say here, what I am trying to figure out for myself, is how to apply pressure where and when appropriate or at the very least, learn how to accept the pressure and operating successfully under the circumstances.
It seems I will have a lot of time at home to reflect on this over the next few days.
Are you in the path of the blizzard today?
Are there things in life you know you take too seriously?
What are your must-have foods when you need to stock the kitchen for a storm?